Currently Reading The Pilgrim's Progress (Signet Classics) By John Bunyan see related

Isn't it funny how sometimes just a few weeks or months can make you feel like a completely different person? Looking back at my last post I totally feel that way. 
Here's what I mean:  I had my ideas about jobs and how long I'd stay, what relationships would fade over time and which would become stronger, and where physically and spiritually the Lord would be leading and using me. Over the past few weeks God has realigned me. Not knowing what life has in store is refreshing. In some ways I feel like a college freshman again wondering about the glorious future and the very exciting present. In other ways despite my youthful vigor and zeal I have this God given patience and awe filling me more each day.
There are some unexpected changes that made me want to cry but the Lord has very clearly told me that I am not to cry. I think a lot of inner healing people will say that you shouldn't bottle up emtions but I know that I can't greive over what God has told me not to. Crying very often (especially with girls) can just spiral into a depression. It was hard not to cry when certain thoughts popped into my head but I listened to the Lord and I'm not sad at all now.
Quite the opposite really. I'm excited about 23. My first real job, my first place away from home and school, and my first year of paying my own bills. Well maybe not that last one. 

i passed.

i'm a nurse.

uh-oh my parents just said the j-word.

but i like the other j-word.

after all, he's the reason i did the first thing anyway.

so in about a few hours i will be holding my college diploma in my hands. it's kind of scary to think that i'm done with school. i don't think i'll ever go back to full-time education. instead, i'll be working. i sometimes cry at the thought but despite my whining about it i'm ready. something really good will probably happen and so that makes me excited about the next few years, but also kind of sad at the thought of no more college. it really has been the best part of my life so far. before rutgers and harvest i didn't know many people who actually loved God the way i seemed to. i thought i was destined to be a loner christian. the only people who served God like me were the preachers who i would occasionally meet at retreats but were never accessible. i thought i would have to settle for friends who were nominal christians but, God gave me the greatest gift ever-- a whole new family at rutgers. it's my favorite part of life so far. i'm mourning the loss of a season of my life that doesn't want to end. i'm mourning the loss of friends i may never be physically close to anymore. but even in this way emo entry i'm ready to be a jackie pullinger and something radical to make life even better for me and other people.

goodbye rutgers. we had a good run. i love you, but things will never be the same. don't worry, you'll find another girl to charm for 4 years. her name is amanda.

i've been waiting for this day for a while but never thought it would come...

i got hit by a car in new brunswick while running.

no worries. i'm fine... and no it wasn't my fault.

Currently Reading Revolution in World Missions By K. P. Yohannan see related

some numbers to make you think...

more than 4,000 of the world's languages do not have a translation of the bible.

85% of all bibles are printed in english.

80% of the world's people have never owned a bible.

americans have an average of 4 bibles per household.

americans have one pastor to 230 people.

some "hard to reach" places in the world have one missionary for every 500,000 people.

there are 1,750 cultural groups in the world without a church.

40,000 people in india die EVERYDAY without hearing the gospel ONCE.

more than 60% of the world's population lives in asia...

-brought to you by "revolution in world missions" y k.p. yohannan